Me

 Hope for the best , prepare for the worst 

I might not be someone first choice but I am a great choice
I may not be rich but I am valuable
I don't pretend to be someone I'm not, because I am good at being me
I might not be proud of  some of the things  I've done in the past, but I am proud of who I am today
I might not be perfect  but I don't need to be
Take me as I am, or watch me as I walk away

Time flies ,people might change but memories between us still last in my heart
Hello , my dear friends, how are you?
 Please forgive me that I havent contact with you all for a long time
You all are always in my heart.

I need a wish or perhaps I can make a wish for myself
I wish to step on my footprints on the every land of earth
May be, this is hard but this is not impossible
I believe I can do it :D

My eyes is the best camera in the world.
She can see all the magnificent scene in every place
My brain is the best memory card in the world
She can memorize every single beautiful scene that snap by my eyes .
Once remember ,never forget
My leg is the best vehicles in the world
I can travel all around the world and step on every land in the earth .
My hand is the best machine.
She can help me to make the miracle
I feel so lucky to have them.
Then I can have a wonderful trip with them.

Sometimes I will think that travel alone is a very challenging mission
And I am the one who will challenge this mission.
For sure, may be, I will bring on my lover

Travel alone might be challenging but travel together is romantic
You will feel happier if some one is be with you in the trip.
Sharing is caring.
Have a trip with me , will you?

Heal the world , make it a better place :D

One wish , one day , one bag pack
Two of us , one earth ,  memory together

Hope for the best :))

心痛是一个魔

从早上睡醒就一直持续到晚上睡觉

很想找一大堆事情做让自己忘了那种痛

可惜 我找不到

我问自己 为什么两年前的自己可以那么快乐可以如此潇洒

是心态变了还是环境变了

我知道 我必须振作

对不起 我需要一些时间

我本来就不主动 本来不够勇敢

我只能说 我讨厌现在的自己

没有目标 没有梦想

读书的日子真好

我想把自己沉浸在忙碌之中

或许的或许可以从我心中慢慢淡忘

一旦转身 就没有回头的可能

我们是不是在 

错的时间遇上了对的人 还是在

对的时间遇上了错的人

一切的一切是不是个错误？

他跟我说 你心情不好时可以找我但是千万不要开脸书

它会让你的心情更加糟糕

他说的或许是对的吧

现在终于了解其实自己也不是那么了解他

也知道自己在他心中多么的微不足道

我疑惑了 

对不起 我太要强 

对不起 我不懂如何开口告诉你我的真实想法

对待你 我变得很小心翼翼

我很怕本来聊得很开心却因为我的一句话而改变气氛

我很怕我们会突然安静去

我更怕听到你的拒绝

我很怕我已经远远不如你的朋友

你看不到我的心是多么的焦距 害怕

你不懂我为什么会多想

或许对你来说 我是真的无理取闹

在乎才会乱想 不在乎我连看你都嫌烦

看了那封信息我哭了很久很久 

我深信每一个问题都可以解决

但这次我却不懂该怎样了 我不懂我该用什么方法才不会让大家受伤

所以我选择了逃避 我想逃到一个没有人认识我的地方做我想做的事情

我真的不懂该怎么办

你说你想要自由 我给你

你说你不要我的管束 我成全你

这时候我已经明白 我可有可无

当初的我爱你 已经变成了我碍你

我会离开当你不再需要我的时候

他说 如果你心情不好就把他写出来

想些什么就写

多年以后再拿出来看看就会发现自己当初的想法多么愚蠢

对 我就是愚蠢 才会想把当初的你变回来 不过这不可能了吧

我也忘了有多久没有跟你任性撒娇了

因为我害怕如果我对你任性会造成对你的困扰

我很想再任性一次 不过我却不确定你还会不会想当初一样宠着我了

给我勇气走下去好吗？

加油 李荟茹

时间是魔咒

它可以改变很多很多 

我们真的变了吗？

既来之 则安之 

既然改变了一切我能做的只是接受即使我是多么地想念从前的一切

那道墙有很厚吗？

我真的很怕即使我用尽所有的勇气和力气都打不掉

我很怕只有我一个人在努力去把墙打掉

毕竟爱情不是一个人的努力 而是两个人的付出

不要让我当笨蛋好吗？

如果真的没有希望了可以好心告诉我吗

每一次都很容易把手放开

但是这次却不想了

因为只要心还有不甘就不到放弃的时候

我知道如果就这样放手了 那会是我一辈子的遗憾

隔膜冷战是暂时的 但是遗憾却是永远的

感谢上天把他放在我身边

陪我闹陪我笑听我哭跟我讲很多健康道理

我喜欢他的乐观 :D

话说从德国回来就好像一场梦

一切都结束得太快了

回来之前哭到眼睛肿像熊猫

我很幸运可以认识你们下一篇专属你们

谢谢 :D

李荟茹 这只是一个小小的考验

跨过去就可以看到彩虹了

无论怎样都不退缩勇往直前为自己为他为我们努力一次好吗？

我们一起加油好吗？

嗯 加油 我可以的:DD

最近脸都臭臭的 所以明天要保持好心情

心宽路则宽

给自己一个微笑 我还是打不倒李荟茹 :)

How's life?

 

 

 

When I feel sad , what I only need is a hug.

 

I feel warm in your arm.

 

Haha , I put a title that the question Haziq always ask me.

How's life?

 

I love  busy day then I can immerse myself in  the business and think nothing.

 

Today was just a super duper busy day and I laugh non stop today.

In the morning, we went to the Human rights workshop.

I cried when I saw the video.

The poor people are really pity and I impressed by them.

 

If people have the right to have food and shelter why there are 16000 children die because of starvation everyday?

If people have freedom to speech why thousands is prisoned of speaking their mind?

If people have the right for education why some of them are unable to read?

 

I really impressed by that video.

 

Theatre in the afternoon! I love it so much.

We all have fun at there , I have no any image left after I laughed like a crazy at there.

But that is really funny.

 

Geocaching , walking non stop for about two hours and finding the treasure.

We all meet at forest and having a bbq at there.

I can see the night  view of Heilbronn from the forest , I love to see the night view .

I just simply sit at there enjoy the view and dont want to bbq.

If I have a chance, I wish I can see the night view of all country in the world.

That is so romantic.

 

Haziq you light up my world like nobody else haha

Thank for bringing me along with your torchlight.

Be with you, I am in the peace. Crazyyyy !!

 

Axel , he is soooo.. handsome? haha cant find a good adjective to describe him

He bake a sausage and he put it into my mouth .

Okay, not the mouth actually, is near to the mouth.

He just love to make fun with me and see my emotion when I saw the delicious sausage but I cant eat it.

Yea,thank you for taking us the carpet so that we can sit on it and enjoy the beatiful night view.

 

Yea, Nicolas , now is your turn

He is just crazy and I dunno how he did it.

We played game this afternoon and he hug me with differnt style unexpectedly.

He just give me a princess hug and I was just shocked at there because no one did this before to me.

I think I am heavy and asked him to let me down but he said I am not that heavy so he continue it.

I really wondered how he did that?

Okay , well , at least I have to thank him because he is the one who hug me like a baby since my dad did that many years ago.

 

Tomorrow shopping with Pris! Have fun..!

Oh yea, may be I should follow Axel and Haziq to the forest and play at there .

Have a nice day :DD

 

 



Azo !

 

我不懂今天自己到底干吗了

Papa 准备了很好吃的法国午餐给我 但是食不知味

我一想到 要离开这里 离开这个温暖的家

我就很伤心 心情真的很不好

 

心情跌到了谷底 当我看到那些照片

我想我明白为什么了 是吧

我从早上开始就这样一直到晚上

把自己关在房间里 不去和家人散步

我怕跟他们相处得越好 我会越舍不得

舍不得离开这里

 

 

对不起 我从来都不会很好地控制自己的脾气

我生气时 再难听的话我都说得出来

我不知道为什么在生气的时候 我总喜欢说出一些与真心背道而驰的话

我也没有奢望过 谁可以真正走进我心里 知道我想的到底是什么

 

 

在德国 很多人都会问我 为什么你从不谈恋爱？

我总是会笑笑着说 谈恋爱 很麻烦

他们听到我的理由 都笑了 很可爱的理由吧

 

从小到大 不是没有遇过喜欢的追求者

但是我就是提不起勇气打开心门把心交出去

爱情 对我来说很神圣 所以我不想去侵犯他

爱情是一个深渊 我很怕自己会跌进深渊里 无法自拔

说到底 就是我害怕 我害怕被伤害的滋味

不是爱不起 只是伤不起

 

说到底 是我对自己不够自信了

一直认为自己不够好 所以才会想太多 去猜测去怀疑

 

谁都没看懂 坚强的外表下藏着是一颗怎样的心

我了解 心痛的滋味

我看过 朋友一次次为爱情流泪的那种痛

有时心痛到 真的就希望可以这样死掉就好了

 

就这样 我用潇洒把自己武装起来

我灌输着自己根本不需要什么爱情

我告诉自己要好好爱自己 要让自己变得很强

所以我很拼命很努力地去完成每件事

我读了很多的书为自己增值

 

今天的我不是偶然 我走过那段恐怖的时期

现在的我 心更难打开了

我怕我给予别人的信任会被踩在脚底下

说我自我 我认了

 

如果你看得懂我 你会流泪

我从不担心你会流泪 因为你永远都看不懂我的内心

 

加油李荟茹

You are strong enough!

 

Anyway, yesterday I have a really great reunion dinner with all of them.

I love the purple dress because it brings luck to me

 

Crazy Andrea and Zi Shan said that Gary is special to me

Obviously, he came to talk with me first.

We talked and laughed, Andrea stare at me and I get something from her eyes.

 

Anyway, I have a great talk with you Gary.

'Are you come from Malaysia?' your first question make me laugh non stop.

However, Zi Shan said that this is her first time saw a boy used such an interesting question to stalk a girl.

She said he always stare at me. Crazy，ahahaha

Okay,well, that is not stalking,we are just chatting at there.

 

Later, chatting with Aaron, Andrea,Kyle and Zi Shan

I have to come true that Aaron is really funny and he always has the ability to make us laugh non stop

We gave each ohter hug before we back

I love them so much but we are going to seperate soon .

 

Thank you for giving me a special reunion dinner.

Love you all ! :D

 

 

 



Heilbronn

I never thought that before I came here .

Now, I knew, Heilbronn is my second home , I love Heilbronn.

 

Time passed like a blinking of eyes.

This is my third weeks in Heilbronn with my host family at here.

I dont know how my friends think about their host families but my host family is really awesome.

Papa , Mama , Katha , Phillipp , and Johanna

They treat me as the part of their family.

We share a lot of things and culture

We tell many jokes and say out the difficulties that we met in the daily life

They helped me to cope with the problem.

They are trying their best to give me a very sweet memory at here.
 

 

I still remembered what they said,

" If you want to come here again, need not to pay, just call us. "

Danke! I was touched by those words.

 

Many of my friends said that I am so lucky and blessed to have a good host family.

I told them this is uncomparable because happiness is not a ruler, you cant compare it..

You will feel happy when you treat others well and they treat you well too.

So that why I am so happy.

Guys, actually you have a nice host family just try to communicate with them, we have no too much time.

One week left. How sad it is.

 

I dont know, how sad will I be during the time to say goodbye.

I hate to farewell but I know that is the routine of the life

You have to prepare to say goodbye since the time you say hello.

 

I know, I will cry.

 

Haziq, he always use a moody sound to say that it is really sad we have to say goodbye in next  week.

He scared we have no the chance to meet with each other again in the rest of his life.

Because he is ' overseas'

He get a punch from me when he said out those words.

 

I have only one week.

I want to spend all of my time with this beautiful city and the friendly people .

Oh yea, forget to tell you. Today I almost get lost.
I get a wrong bus due to my mistaken to see the bus number.
My bus number is actually 61 or 62. I saw a bus came and I thought that is my bus.
Actually that bus number is 642 and the bus is going to the outskirt of city.
Luckily I get suspicious on the bus so I went down the bus at the next stop and wait for my real bus to come.
Thank god I am not get lost finally :D

 

I love Heilbronn.

 It is snowing again and the weather is freaking cold
 

Going to Heidelberg tomorrow and have a reunion dinner with all of the participants of Green Academy and their host families.

Happy reunion dinner to you all :D

 

I know, I am strong enough.

 

 Miss you <3



Miss-ing

 

Hello , I am here again to update my blog about the life in Heilbronn.

Honestly, I just simply love this beatiful city.

 

 

Last saturday, I went to ice skating.

The conclusion from the experience is ice skating is not an easy game to learn or play.

This is because although I only felt down one time but my knees are all of bruises.

Actually I learnt from zero.

I just dont want to give up and lose to the reality so I am just keep on trying and trying.

Thank you Haziq and his host brother for holding my hand tightly then I wont fell down.

And, for sure, Priss thank you for lending a hand for me too.

 

Actually, from the ice skating experience, I realized that ice skating are seem like our life.

In the beginning of our life, we are nothing.

Everything has to start from zero. So, we try to learn everything.

For sure, sometimes, we will fell down and be frustrated.

However, dont forget, every time you felt down is the time for you to grow up.

The winner of the game is the one who never give up although he failed for many times.

This is because he or she know that everything he sacrificed will be paid.

Just reep what you sow

May be, sometimes you will fail too, but at least you tried it.

And you will never get regret of this.

All the need to become a person from zero to hero is determination and the atitude of dont afraid to try anything.

 

Then, treat people well because they might be help you in the future.

Friendship is the thing that cant learn from the school.

But if you not learn this then you actually learn nothing.

Just like Haziq them, they are the one who help me when I was almost fell down.

This is what I learnt from ice skating.

 

By the way, some of the German guys are so rude.

Yea, Germans are open minded, totally agree with it.

Until today, this is not the first time for me to see them kissing with their lover.

This is not accidentally.

They are kissing no matter where they are ,ice skating field, school and even by the roadside.

Oh my, they are soooo brave to be themselves

They just do what they wish to do at that moment.

No worries of their face problems, no worries of their parents, no worries of the people at the side, they did it without any hesitation.

This is really different from Asians.

Me like an Asians always worry too much, worry about my pride, worry about my parents and so many things to worry about.

Sometimes, we cant be ourselves because we have too many worries and cause

us feel afraid to do what we wish to do.

Life is too short and we dunno how long of our life is.

Why dont we just be ourselves?  Do what you want.

May be you will die tomorrow, but you never regret because you did what you wish to do.

Yea, I learnt this value during this trip.

Just be person you expected to be but not be a person that other person expected you to be.

 

Next, I am just repeat the routine of daily life.

Waking up, rush to the bus stop, walk a long way to AIM, having german class, workshop,rush to

bus stop to go home, walk again, and perhaps can skype with him if he has not sleep yet.

Actually, German class is interesting but the teacher is just...

Khai Peng is the one who always make joke in the class and luckily we will not be so boring

in the class.

 

I feel sad because I cant accompany him during the time when he need me the most.

He is trying to keep the secret and just crying alone at the night.

Dont worry, that is not the reason for me to leave you and I am not a person like that too

I will stand by your side and support you no matter sweet or bitter, just like you did to me too.

Promise me, dont cry because of this again.

The best way to protect your beloved is to make yourself become stronger.

Then you are strong enough to protect her and avoid her from those pains.

Remember , crying is okay but always crying will just make the thing become worst

This time crying is useless, do what the man should be do

Add oil :D

 

I was just miss him badly since the day I went to ice skating

I miss my friends, my family and him.

He will never let me get hurt if he was here.

Never mind, I want to be strong enough to tackle all the obstacles.

Hwei Ru, you can do it :D